what you desire | a mix for cassel sharpe and lila zacharov (x)
[for isabel, who will drink you down like a shot of whiskey]

A girl like that, Grandad said, perfumes herself with ozone and metal filings. She wears trouble like a crown. If she ever falls in love, she’ll fall like a comet, burning the sky as she goes.

01. problem queen - danger mouse and daniele luppi
i killed a girl when i was fourteen

help me through this déjà vu // this crazy state of shock (of shock) // have you seen the problem queen // she’s never far away // away from me // and it seems all a dream // some sad luxury

02. green gloves - the national
i don’t con myself

falling out of touch with all my // friends are somewhere getting wasted // hope they’re staying glued together // i have arms for them

03. selective memory - eels
i’m a worker. i’m a worker. i’m a worker. 

if i lay my head down // i will see you in my dream // wearing that polka dot dress // and sitting by the stream // leaning in to hear you // you will whisper in my ear // and everything i need to know // i finally hear // i wish i could remember

04. jezebel - iron & wine
no longer a collection of fragile bird bones and fur 

who’s seen jezebel? // she was born to be the woman we could blame // make me a beast half as brave // i’d be the same

05. blood and fire - the indigo girls
“it hurts not to be near you”

you have spent nights thinking of me // missing my arms, but you needed to leave // leaving my cuts, leaving my burns // hoping i’d learn

06. i can’t touch you anymore - the magnetic fields
i can’t be trusted

you wanna know if we fell in love too fast // you wanna know if this is well too good to last // you’re asking the wrong questions // you’re opening the wrong doors // i love you, i can’t touch you anymore

07. year of the tiger - st. vincent
a glittering choker of dried blood

i always had // a knack with the danger // … // italian shoes // like these rubes know the difference // suitcase of cash // in the back of my stick shift

08. black dresses - the builders and the butchers
eyes like bullet holes and mouths made of knives

well her hometown was built by a few greedy men // people tell me she was descended from them // she’s a claim in the darkness ever since she was a kid // and she doesn’t mourn for a man’s come and gone // she’s worn the color of black all along // she was born with a stone where there shoulda been a heart

09. anything we want - fiona apple
my sin and my salvation

my scars were reflecting the mist in your headlights // i looked like a neon zebra shaking rain off her stripes // and the rivulets had you riveted to the places that i wanted you to kiss me when we find some time alone

10. a glow - okkervil river
my skin is alive with the memory of her hands

come into the den, come into the den // you’ve got a glow // climb into my arms with blood on your clothes // you’ve got a glow // and you’re no one’s but mine

11. dangerous girl - lana del rey
the big score

he’s the get rich quick type // mafioso hit type // girl, i’m gonna marry him! // i’m the bad girl next door // baby’s always wantin’ more // buyin’ diamond jewelry // take me to the jersey shore // he like my mink white (white) // we go out all night // we’re living off the grid // shining in the crime light